Bhagavad Gita 11.45

adṛṣṭa-pūrvaṁ hṛṣito ’smi dṛṣṭvā

bhayena ca pravyathitaṁ mano me

tad eva me darśaya deva rūpaṁ

prasīda deveśa jagan-nivāsa

 

Seeing what none had seen before,

My heart rejoices—yet trembles more;

Show me, O shelter of the world, your gentle form,

Be gracious, for you are my heart’s eternal home.

 

My dear Lord, just as Arjuna requests you to reveal your gentle form after revealing your fearsome universal form, I sometimes need to see the firmness of your love after being exposed to the fickleness of worldly love.

O supreme guru, I often feel that I need to earn the love of others, even within relationships that are meant to be close and secure. I fear that if I am not capable enough, I may be deemed unworthy of love and therefore rejected. I may carry that same insecurity into my relationship with you, thinking that I must earn your love through diligent spiritual practice, and fearing that if I am not serious enough, you may deem me unworthy.

O supremely loving Lord, your love for me is always unconditional. If I feel unloved, it is not because you have turned away from me, but because I have turned away from you. My spiritual practices are not meant to get you to turn toward me; they are meant to turn me toward you. Just as the sun is always shining, and if I cannot see it because my eyes are closed, all I need to do is open my eyes, similarly my spiritual practices are meant to open my heart to your ever-present love.

O supreme benedictor, may this understanding of your unfailing love for me be like the revelation of your gentle form—encouraging and enriching my heart as I strive to offer it to you in love.

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11.45 After seeing this universal form, which I have never seen before, I am gladdened, but at the same time my mind is disturbed with fear. Therefore please bestow Your grace upon me and reveal again Your form as the Personality of Godhead, O Lord of lords, O abode of the universe.